I m betting the food provided to volunteers is probably high carb, low protein, high fat. I m a big proponent of fat, but you can t mix it with carb. These foods will make you fat hungry depressed with the roller coaster insulin ride. You sound like you feel like you have no self control and it sounds like you had no chance of controlling the situation. Quit beating yourself up. If you can next time take food with you (cans tuna and such). All this will pass if you have your health. Big hugs hun.You will lose more body fat eating protein and fat (don t eat protein alone) than not eating AT ALL. To lose weight fast eat all you want but nothing but meat, eggs, healthy oils, mayo, butter and half an avocado a day (you ll need added potassium). Keep your fat percentage high. Adding in green vegetables some cheese will continue weight loss but at a slower pace.If you starve yourself, your body will freak out and will want to store every ounce in case it doesn t get nourished again. You need to give it adequate nourishment so it doesn t slow your metabolism down to adjust for lower calories.Simple carbohydrates (sugar, flour, bread, cereal, pasta, potatoes, rice) triggers insulin which can store the calories you eat into fat. The more protein you eat the more the fat burning hormone glucagon is released. The more carbohydrate you eat the more the fat storage hormone insulin is released.Carbs are addictive and can be disastrous to our health. The best way to break the addiction is NO carbs for 3 days. Make a huge batch of deviled eggs and eat one every time you want something have huge omelets for breakfast, with bacon, a lil onion, peppers, mushrooms cheese. Pork chops for lunch. Get pork rinds and eat them with tuna salad. Steak for dinner. Make a huge sugar free cheese cake for dessert. Eat so much you won t feel deprived of anything. By the fourth day, your addiction will be gone and you can start making healthy choices.High insulin levels unbalance other hormones. Controlling your insulin level will balance out other hormones allow human growth hormone (HGH) to be produced naturally so you will gain lean muscle even without exercise. Any exercise will greatly increase your muscle mass with high HGH levels.Reducing body fat and increasing muscle mass will have you in awesome shape in no time. Good luck!
bottom line is you have to limit your food intake and stop eating so much, its very simple
The good thing is that you recognize that you no longer want to live like this and want to make a change. Remember that you didn t gain weight overnight so don t expect to lose is immediately. If you want to be healthy and keep it off combine exercise and watch what you eat. Make healthy choices, snack healthy eat small meals about every 3-4 hours so that you don t get to the point where you are ravishingly hungry. Eat foods that are high in fiber and drink lots of water, both help you stay full longer. And don t forget to treat yourself once a week because you don t want to deprive yourself. Start off with moderate exercise as you don t want to hurt yourself nor discourage yourself that weight isn t coming off fast. If you can get a partner to exercise with you that can help you stay motivated. Best wishes.